Friday, October 20, 2006

foeticide

it was a lovely morning when i got up today, little chill in the air indicating the arrival of winter...made a cup coffee and went staight up to the terrace, with coffee in one hand and newspaper in the other...after going through a couple of pages i finally arrived on page12, opinion section, my favourite....every thing was fine,the same usual stuff about politics etc untill i happened to read this poem..it goes like this
"feeling triumphant you must be
not letting me see daylight..
a lttle bundle of joy i was
pulsating with life within you
did it not hurt u, me being torn
from within u with sharp edged instuments?
did your heart not bleed for snapping all ties with your own flesh and blood....
you sealed my fate nd branded me unwanted
poor me turned into a lifeless mass of flesh
dragged by stray dogs or dumped in dingy well
to rot along with so many like me
did i deserve that???
i thought i was a daughter OR am i just a female foetus".....
this one touched me...i always get disturbed whenever i read about female foeticide, incidence rate is much high in our country especially in the rural areas....my dad once told me" that if something disturbs u, try mending it." even though my contribution is going to be like a drop, i'll try ...

Thursday, October 19, 2006

roses-2


My God,what has happened to me,i'm supposed to be studying but.....i think the my creative hormones are at peak, maybe it's festive season or maybe something else.......

roses


here is something which i recently finished ,just love doing all this whenever i get time...
roses made of clay on a porcelain tile...still wet...
(if my practice as a dental surgeon doesn't turn up good,i think i've got a back up;)

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

silly questions

well i was just wondering today about the questions i used to ask my mom and dad when i was growing up...infact as a matter of fact all the kids put their parents in such awkward situations and cause annoyance,its not kids who are at fault,are they? no...its just that they are far more observing than their parents think they are.. unlike an adult,a child is eager to investigate more and more,when he is satisfied with statement made ,then only he will terminate the chapter...untill then poor parents have to be ready for the series of HOW,WHY,WHEN and so on....
well if i try, one big question in my list was...
how children are born?well my mom's answer used to be as follows..
she used to tell me that there is a very big hall(she used to demonstrate big by spreading her hands)...in that big hall there are many cots, parents go inside , look around for the cutest baby and come home with that baby....
i used to feel happy that i was cutest one and my parents chose me...untill i was sitting in biology class of mine..where we were told evrything about the male and female reproductive system, about the gametes and the chromosomes..... once the class was over, my fantasy of being the cutest baby was over.....
but so what,even after knowing the rational explanation,i still feel that my mother's explntn was cute...in her own sweet way she made me feel special...LOVE U LOT'S MOM.........

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

thnx dodo...

well i had a tough day yesterday..had an argument with my dad which was streched to the level unconceivable..i tried and gave as many as logical reasons possible from my side but my dad did not respond to even a single one..when i was convinced to a complete degree that nothing is going to transform his thinking i came back to my room,banged the door..tried to make evrything cool,but everything in vain...picked up pen nd paper nd started writing,even tht didn't help...then God sent someone to rescue me..He is friend of mine , i've never been able to determine the nature of our relationship..how we became frens is another funny but a sweet story...well as soon as he called i just kind of decanted my feelings in front of him,after listening patiently he took charge of the coversation seraphical manner.. "TRUST ME" he uses these two words very frequently,i think they his magic words..after 20 mins of session he pulledme back ,i regained my confidence and was ready to fight for my right again..in the morning i retrieved myself,went to my dad,acknowledged my faults and tried again..got a positive response and lets see if in another 2-3 days i'm able to convince him..
this is to thank u my dear frend for being there always.....

Monday, October 09, 2006

something from past

i was just going thru my diary today and i happended to read a poem which i wrote when i was in final year of my college...here it goes
sitting alone in the darkness
and trying to solve the riddle
cerebrating why God created me
coz that's when troubles followed...
thinking about the journey so far
and then thinking about the left
why do i blame it on fate
when it's always i who starts late...
everything seems so dark
just like the darkness in my room....
but somewhere,somewhere deep in my heart
i know its just a phase
and its soon gonna pass
BUT until then
i'm sitting alone in the darkness ..
i'm sitting alone......